The last few weeks have probably been the most stressful of my life. I like to think of myself as a positive person and when I’m going through a hard time I always tell myself how lucky I am in so many ways. Well its been hard to stay positive lately.
It’s been really hard putting on a brave face in front of the children. The last thing I want is the stress to affect them too but not sleeping well thrown in has left me short tempered and I hate myself for it.
Our family relies on my wonderful, hardworking husband and his work situation has been in limbo lately. He has been employed with the same employer for over 13 years but for many reasons his job security has been unsure. The not knowing has been the worst. Not knowing what plan to make just waiting to be thrown into a direction wherever that might be.
I guess we took for granted the security an employed job brings and we didn’t fully appreciate that until it was about to be ripped away from us.
My husband is a grafter. He certainly isn’t one for sitting still and that has been the biggest worry for me. If he didn’t have work and was stuck indoors he would be frustrated which would make me frustrated which means we would be at each others throats.
It sounds silly but if we spent all day, every day together we would probably end up separating. Not because we don’t love each other enough, we’ve been together for 12 years so we have to be doing something right, but because time apart from each other helps us WANT to be with each other all the time.
After alot of uncertainty hubby is now officially self employed! It’s very scary. He has always been proud that he solely supports our family financially, and he still is but now it has an added pressure with it he has to find his own work.
I’m so proud of him. I think he underestimates himself. He is fantastic at his job and it shows as he has had many calls already asking him to price up jobs etc.
I’m excited about it all. There’s more opportunity for him to have weekends at home, we have just had business cards delivered, ordered t-shirts and when I have worked out how there will be a website set up.
I will always be behind my husband no matter what his decision is. He has done so much for us and I know he will always continue to.